I have a stomachache.

it hurts. oh well. it'll go away soon, probably.
yesterday was a good day, and nothing bad at all has happened to day.

so why do i not feel right?

i wonder what it is. i don't know. loneliness? maybe. sadness? not really. nothing exactly to be sad about. discomfort? in a way, yeah. but what's causing that ?

list of some things i have to stop...
1. cursing. bad habit. bad for Camp, especially.
2. FWB. it's... just exists. and it's like a normal thing... but it shouldn't be. i don't want it to be. how do i tell the guys that, though? i mean... they'll get mad at me... i hate it when ppl r mad at me.
3. slacking off. i have two bad grades in school right now. pretty easily fixed, but still, they're there. gotta quit it with that.
4. being a bitch? i dunno. i let ppl annoy me too often and i flip out. ive been flipping out a lot recently.
5. existing. it'd be nice if i didn't exist anymore.

i'm tired. physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted. i want this fucking school year to end. grades are biting me in the ass, every boy situation i've ever been in has bitten me in the ass at some point... it's all so damned annoying. and tiring.

wow, turned into a pretty depressing blog, huh? oh well.

Fujiko out...

Hangin' with the Flexinator

so i'm in global studies. it ain't so bad today. we finished the movie we've been watching for the longest time now and it ends with the main guy getting shot, of course. it's a real story kinda thing, too--about El Salvador trying to get independence but being under the control of military jackasses. anyway, we finished that and then talked a little about it. then we had to take some survey. it was kinda boring. so now we have free time. and shes literally letting us do WHATEVER we want. so i'm listening to music, doing a blog and signed onto meebo, just in case my peers decide to hop on.
i'm in a good mood today. it's not SPECTACULAR or anything, but i'm not mad or anything. i was last period, though--jeez i hate christy bond. she's so damned annoying. always talking like her life depends on it and being a dumbass. called her cake face to try and get her to shut up she just smart-assed at me. and later she was talking about how i called her cake face and she said she was like "i dont c any sprinkles!" i was sitting BEHIND HER. those are our assigned seats. she needs to be shot. she's so annoying. anyway though i felt better because i started writing all over my jeans. wrote all this stuff....

mas de las chicas con caras de pastel son PERRAS!!!
kangaroo court<3
cigarillos son del Diablo
salta, mujer, salta!
se prohibe fumar! tonto....
quiero ser fiel
pongo bebes en el horno! =D
conservar los arboles!

i also renewed the spot where my jeans say "A saint is a sinner who never quit trying. -Yogananda" and i wrote on my sneakers...
the phantom of the opera<3
quest for camelot
camp manatawny<3
idiomas<3
and that's all...for now =3 *mischievous* anyway. i had a study hall this morning, seeing as it's thursday (damn.. it's also my day to do the dishes...), so i used it to go to senorita's first period class. it was fun. theres a guy in there that wants to get with me (if anyone knew it, they'd laugh their asses off at him--he's a popular-type dude). he answered a question and i was like O.0 jeez his voice is still so high... xD haha. anyways.
so, class is over in a few minutes. i'm listening to "the reason" by hoobastank. it's a really good song.<3 also was just listening to a song by avril lavigne<3 she'll always be awesome, i don't care how old i get.
anyway, i gotta get off before the bell rings.

fujiko out--<3