I have a stomachache.

it hurts. oh well. it'll go away soon, probably.
yesterday was a good day, and nothing bad at all has happened to day.

so why do i not feel right?

i wonder what it is. i don't know. loneliness? maybe. sadness? not really. nothing exactly to be sad about. discomfort? in a way, yeah. but what's causing that ?

list of some things i have to stop...
1. cursing. bad habit. bad for Camp, especially.
2. FWB. it's... just exists. and it's like a normal thing... but it shouldn't be. i don't want it to be. how do i tell the guys that, though? i mean... they'll get mad at me... i hate it when ppl r mad at me.
3. slacking off. i have two bad grades in school right now. pretty easily fixed, but still, they're there. gotta quit it with that.
4. being a bitch? i dunno. i let ppl annoy me too often and i flip out. ive been flipping out a lot recently.
5. existing. it'd be nice if i didn't exist anymore.

i'm tired. physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted. i want this fucking school year to end. grades are biting me in the ass, every boy situation i've ever been in has bitten me in the ass at some point... it's all so damned annoying. and tiring.

wow, turned into a pretty depressing blog, huh? oh well.

Fujiko out...